There's no time in the animal world...Image courtesy of Brett Critchley at Dreamstime.com
At the end of each day, I am always faced with the continual question ďAm I there yet?Ē This concerns a number of goals of being productive in ways that I have set myself for the day - concerning housework; as well as reaching a certain number of readersÖand the list goes on.
Yes, each day there is some progression. Some days it is more than others, but I am always faced with a feeling of insatiability, that somehow, I havenít done enough to make it.
What is Ďmaking it? Is it buying off your house, or being able to save for a car, or getting a better paying job? Is it having the perfect house? Or being the perfect cat owner?
At the end of each day, thereís increasingly a sense of yes, and whatís next? Whereís the meaning.
Someone I respect highly said something to me once, which has so much wisdom in it: ďIn ten years time, will this really matter?Ē
So I guess itís about what matters to you as an individual. I am finding that since stopping uni to climb that ladder because Australiaís economy is poor, and I also come from a high achieving family and feel a pressure to succeed, that I am more about things that should matter more.
Which is a good thingÖwell for me. Each personís values will be different. I babysat a dog, and I spent the time empathising with this lovely dog. He wasnít mine. This was a rescue dog, and was rather nervous being separated from his ďauntĒ who had to go to the shopping centre for a while. He was nervous and had his little head turned toward the door like heís afraid she might not have come back.
He appeared nervous when trolleys were pushed by. As best as I could, I tried to pat him; comfort him, and sense what he needed.
More these days on the phone, as best as Iím able, I try to be there for my friends by being a better listener.
And importantly, Iím listening to myself and to what my body needs.
Instead of seeing time as something that needs to be divided strictly; I aim to live in the moment - to not force anything, and to just let what needs doing happen according to my values.
Itís easier said than done. But let it be. Itís the only real way to peace, I think.