There's no time in the animal world...Image courtesy of Brett Critchley at Dreamstime.com
At the end of each day, I am always faced with the continual question “Am I there yet?” This concerns a number of goals of being productive in ways that I have set myself for the day - concerning housework; as well as reaching a certain number of readers…and the list goes on.
Yes, each day there is some progression. Some days it is more than others, but I am always faced with a feeling of insatiability, that somehow, I haven’t done enough to make it.
What is ‘making it? Is it buying off your house, or being able to save for a car, or getting a better paying job? Is it having the perfect house? Or being the perfect cat owner?
At the end of each day, there’s increasingly a sense of yes, and what’s next? Where’s the meaning.
Someone I respect highly said something to me once, which has so much wisdom in it: “In ten years time, will this really matter?”
So I guess it’s about what matters to you as an individual. I am finding that since stopping uni to climb that ladder because Australia’s economy is poor, and I also come from a high achieving family and feel a pressure to succeed, that I am more about things that should matter more.
Which is a good thing…well for me. Each person’s values will be different. I babysat a dog, and I spent the time empathising with this lovely dog. He wasn’t mine. This was a rescue dog, and was rather nervous being separated from his “aunt” who had to go to the shopping centre for a while. He was nervous and had his little head turned toward the door like he’s afraid she might not have come back.
He appeared nervous when trolleys were pushed by. As best as I could, I tried to pat him; comfort him, and sense what he needed.
More these days on the phone, as best as I’m able, I try to be there for my friends by being a better listener.
And importantly, I’m listening to myself and to what my body needs.
Instead of seeing time as something that needs to be divided strictly; I aim to live in the moment - to not force anything, and to just let what needs doing happen according to my values.
It’s easier said than done. But let it be. It’s the only real way to peace, I think.