I have always had this inbuilt habit of waking up in the morning and laying in bed for a moment, mentally making a list of all that I wish to accomplish for the day. Usually a pretty hefty list. And then at night as I drift off to sleep, berating myself for just how many things on that list still remain unaccomplished. Not a very constructive way to live, I must admit.
Never having been one for making actual written down lists... I tend to just flit from one task to another, moving as inspiration takes me. Often knowing that there is something else that I am "supposed" to be doing, but not quiet feeling it.. so just doing what feels right in the moment. I am not sure how productive this method is, but everything seems to get done eventually.
But lately... rather than going to bed and beating myself up for the things I didn't get accomplished, I have been trialling a new approach. Mentally listing and giving thanks for all the things I did achieve. Even the things that I didn't actually get finished, but at least I made a start on. And increasingly, I am pleasantly surprised at just how long that list actually is.
More importantly, I love the sense of pride and accomplishment I get to enjoy as I go to sleep, knowing that I did some great things that day. And it's that very sense of gratitude that is propelling me to achieve more and more of my goals and desires.
So instead of waking up each morning, already behind the 8 ball, from having gone to sleep angry at my disorganised self... I now get to greet the brand new day, excited, happy, grateful... knowing that at the end of this day, I will return to bed to list all the wonderful things I did. Feeling just how proud I am of myself for all that I can accomplish.