Suzie loves me and gives me purpose - Justine Lovitt
“Getting back on the horse” when things were not going so well used to be an annoying cliché for me.
For example, lately I feel I have had a lot of changes in a small amount of time. I’ve had some trouble with finances, for example. A lot of this has been because I am a confessed poor budgeter.
Recently I got a loan. I felt excited because I might be able to invest it in something, admittedly, nice – for example, for me, being able to afford a hair cut and colour is a luxury.
However, I have spent the entire loan paying off debt, and doing the ‘musts’
I came home today feeling rather sorry for myself. I was tired, weary, and like I wasn’t getting anywhere…
I felt the need for human companionship. However, Suzie, my little cat, was there, as always. Not having a car, I get tired walking to and fro from the shops for food. However, giving her a few pieces of ham, and then telling her and myself that after I write I would spend the rest of the time with her, made me smile when nothing else that day had.
Initially I had just sat down when I got home, and thought of all the humans in the world and how I felt I had failed them.
I felt like just eating junk, and curling up in my blankets, and wallowing.
However, I have a purpose. As long as we have a purpose there is a horse to climb back on. (A figurative horse because I am actually against riding horses for pleasure).
We do need a cause - something other than ourselves.